A long journey ahead
"hey, what would you like for Xmas?" G asked.
"Hmmm...." I said.
"Well...besides happiness and love....lalalala..." He rolled his eyes and said.
Well, besides happiness and love, what else is there to wish for. Whatever I receive would be quite meaningless. Of course, I have to do the sociable thing, offer a less than honest answer without spoiling a seemingly good lunch conversation. Sometimes, honesty is unwaranted especially when it is from my self-serving morality.
"eerr....ski trip." I said.
"You know how to ski," he asked?
"No."
"then don't forget to ask Santa for for some skiing lessons too." He said. "So ski trip and lessons."
"ok."
What is there that the world can offer that could make me happy? Sports car, gucci bags, ski trip, .....all these I can do without. They are nothing to me, really. A marriage, a boyfriend, a family, kids....those I can do without also, if my life is going to end tommorrow, what difference does it make whether I have a sports car or a wedding in two week's time marrying a guy whom I love. So the problem is that I am kicking and alive? The problem is because I am kicking and alive, I am in constant search of better life situations, whether it is the ability to own and drive a sports car, or carrying that gucci bag or that ski trip or that perfect guy, or that perfect family.
So should I remove the root of the problem?
So put your hope in God. Ok. But I can do that even if I am not in this world.
It is a long journey ahead. As I as I live, I have to deal with the meaninglessness of it all.
"Hmmm...." I said.
"Well...besides happiness and love....lalalala..." He rolled his eyes and said.
Well, besides happiness and love, what else is there to wish for. Whatever I receive would be quite meaningless. Of course, I have to do the sociable thing, offer a less than honest answer without spoiling a seemingly good lunch conversation. Sometimes, honesty is unwaranted especially when it is from my self-serving morality.
"eerr....ski trip." I said.
"You know how to ski," he asked?
"No."
"then don't forget to ask Santa for for some skiing lessons too." He said. "So ski trip and lessons."
"ok."
What is there that the world can offer that could make me happy? Sports car, gucci bags, ski trip, .....all these I can do without. They are nothing to me, really. A marriage, a boyfriend, a family, kids....those I can do without also, if my life is going to end tommorrow, what difference does it make whether I have a sports car or a wedding in two week's time marrying a guy whom I love. So the problem is that I am kicking and alive? The problem is because I am kicking and alive, I am in constant search of better life situations, whether it is the ability to own and drive a sports car, or carrying that gucci bag or that ski trip or that perfect guy, or that perfect family.
So should I remove the root of the problem?
So put your hope in God. Ok. But I can do that even if I am not in this world.
It is a long journey ahead. As I as I live, I have to deal with the meaninglessness of it all.
posted by eternal bough at 9:50 PM
4 Comments:
Quate:"so put your hope in God. Ok. But I can do that even if I am not in this world." Question: what does it mean you can do that, i.e. put your hope in God without being in this world?
what is the root of the problem? how can you remove it?
You have pointed out a very real point that a lot of us are in constant search of a better situation, and it's true the action itself is neight wrong or right, but only the person knows in their heart what is the motivation. I am guilty to say that i am always in constant search for a better situation even though sometimes it seems to be just looking for more meaningfulness in the work. I need to ask myself very hard, what i am really looking for and who should i trust..
EB, thanks for the honest thoughts.
it's easy for Christians to say, our hopes are in God; that our lives have meanings because of Him... but honestly, are we just saying that or it's really true? Of course, I put my hopes in God, and without God, my life is definitely meaningless. But from time to time, i wonder if my life is all the time NOT meaningless, or i my only hope is in God... no, not really. though i strive to do so. maybe that's why we're still on earth, so that we can continue to learn and grow, to become a better a person.
(i changed my name again...)
Dear singaporemuffin,
I am answering your comment because I love muffins. But it would great if you could tell me who you are, kill the journalistic curiosity I have.
What is the problem? How do I remove it?
If I were to answer those questions as a responsible godly adult instead of a whiny kid, then I’d say the root of the problem is sin. The bible tells us that the real cause of unbelief is sin – the refusal to acknowledge that one is sinful and in need of our savior. Alone the same line of thought, the real cause of such despondent thinking such as mine is sin. If I were to be honest and seriously examine my life, the real cause is I can’t get what I want and hence I find my life meaningless. Deep down inside, entrenched in my sinful self is the desire to play god, to rule my life, to wave my wand and get what I want, lead my life according to my whims and fancies. When I couldn’t do that, I say, “Isn’t life meaningless?” In between the absolutes and empirical considerations, I create pretexts to justify my sinful ways. But to a discerning mind, which is rooted in the biblical truth, I am just being sinful, allowing my sins to erode my ability to discern. When I allow that to happen, I couldn’t act upon the absolute truth and to put my hope in Him.
I think you should go and read 2 Peter 3:10-11 again. And maybe you should write lines too. Tsk tsk. My DG mates always tease me for falling asleep but look - I actually learned something yesterday!
I think someone should invent a puffin muffin. That would be yummy. Singapore muffins too much vegetables ... all those trees they plant everywhere ... yucks.
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