Decisions, decisions

I read it somewhere: make a decision, any decisions before the circumstances determine it for you and you may not like what has been decided for you.

This week, I have to make some major decisions: to go to Hong Kong or to stay in Singapore, to change my beat or to move.

A decision like that should be easy. If I know myself well and what I want out of life, then I know whether Hong Kong is a place for me or not. The fact that I am spending so much time deliberating and feeling fearful that I might make the wrong decision shows that I am not sure of myself and my place. I always think of myself as an introspective person. If I am, where are the fruits of that introspection?

I also notice that sometimes I can't seem to make a swift decision when a circumstance hit me and rattle the stability that I treasure so much. I find myself sometimes in precarious positions in life situations for too long because I can't decide. I look at my guiding morals and principles and most often I have the answers to my situations. But I can't seem to trust them to help me carry through the decision maybe because these morals and principles are really just concepts and not firmly part of my system. So what must I do so that these morals and principles are part of me?

Ok, back to decision of the week: Hong Kong? errr..........