Unadulterated Rubbish

Please ignore. I am just griping. Don't read further. Please.

You still reading? Heed my well-meaning advice, please!

I am going to gripe here, since my favourite audience for my griping is nowhere to be found. I knew that I would be relegated to a secondary place. This is very bad.

``So, how are you?""

``VERY BAD LAR,'' I wanted to gripe, but i couldn't, I was in the office. `` Just very bad, plus I just realised I am a rabbit-hole christian.''

``Wow. I don't know what that is. But sounds bad.''

At that point, I was deciding between crying or laughing. Crying because things are just bad. Laughing because I realised how pathetic I am to be so ill-equipped to handle life. I should deregister myself as a human being. Where is that logbook?

Glitches, minor ones, just creeped up and spolit my perfect work, no matter how hard I tried. Like someone has a mind to sabo you. It doesn't really make sense.

I am not after glamour or status or anything that are coveted by others. All I want is to lead a quiet life, work hard, get a salary, pay for my bills, do some sports. That is just it. And I did just that. Stay out of trouble, stay out of gossip sessions with my colleagues. I am low profile as far as work is concerned, as far as my social life is concerned, actually as far as everything concerned. I live in a hole. Last week, what did I do, I worked really hard and my only social event was tennis on Wednesday. Ok, maybe that gym trip on Sat is a social event also, reading on a tread mill and watching MTV, without a group of others, some random, running at the same time.

What I am saying is that I am trying my best stay out of trouble? It is like staying in a hole, however hot it is, so that you won't accidentally step on some cow dungs while walking. But some cow came and unknowingly shit in your hole, the exact hole that you are hiding in. Of course, that cow won't know because why would a decent human being hide in a hole. Cows are cows.

Ok, that is quite funny image. Let me laugh for a while.

Now, back to griping.

Ya, that stupid cow. Why? Isn't it irritating that that happen?

Now I feel like a stupid cow for griping on my blog. How on earth will this help? Then again, I am stupid, I don't figure these things. So I am griping here, it is a reflection of how little resources I have been given.

I am trying to think. What exactly did I do to deserve this? Must be something. Discontentment, bitterness, thinking the world is unfair are all caused by sins. But what did I do? Have I been sinning? I have been hiding in a hole, minimising my contact with people, what harm could I possibly do to the world? Maybe somewhere in my childhood, I did something. Did I bully a boy in nursery school? Hmmm..........Ok, even if I did, that was character building for that boy. I was serving a greater purpose. I am sure he has turned out to be some ultra alpha male by now. So can't be that bad.

Actually, I am quite tired of typing to gripe and I am beginning to feel stupid doing this.

At this point, i guess it is best that I stop. I am sure there are things tommorrow that would happen that would affirm my stupidity, without me adding to it.