I start to pray
My God is a faithful God. He always send someone to comfort me whenever I suffer an injustice. Earlier today, I was attacked. I kept quiet to prevent myself from fighting back. I went into prayers. I did what was right in His eyes but I felt sorry for myself.
He didn't send anyone. Usually He would. I felt like a lone warrior fighting the battle alone. I got cuts and wounds but I won. There was no one to share my joyous moment of my triumph and there was no one to comfort me. I was a sad sorry figure when I left the office, with my head hunging low and my shoulders drooping.
I picked up my phone and called. No one was available. I logged on to MSN and messaged whoever was online. No one answered.
For the first time in the longest time, I thought it really would be good to have someone.
I recalled the several times that E had asked me whether I have been praying about finding "the guy". Each time I said no.
"What do you normally pray about for yourself?" E asked.
"Work lor. Finding a new job. I am bored to death. I have been praying for that for the last one year. ARGHHH....I am going to die if it is not going to happen anytime soon."
"Huh? Why don't you pray to God to guide you to your husband?"
"Oh. Because I want a new job badly. For now, finding that guy is not that important. Later lar. I will pray later when I come to it. Walau. JOB first lar."
"You have to pray." E advised. "Have you thought about the qualities you want in your guy?"
"Don't know. The usual lor. 1.8m tall like all my exes. What am I going to do with all my high-heels dating someone shorter right?"
"You must pray." E said, ignoring what I just said about the high-heels, which was such a salient point.
"Orrh..."
Wow. Why E like that? My mom also never talk to me like that. What is the hurry? Pray about it later. One thing at a time mar. I really want a new job. I am so bored and a guy can't resolve my boredom at work. He would just make my life worse.
Even N is anxious. Our usual conversation about my singlehood goes like this:
N: Why don't you like A? (running through the list of single guys that we both know)
Me: Don't like. Don't know.
N: How about B lei.
Me: Don't like.
N: Why?
Me: Don't know. Don't like.
N: That one lei. That C.
Me: Aiyo. No lar. That one cannot.
N: (let out a loud sigh) Then D.
Me: Hmmm... (turning to my book)
N: Oiii. D is good what. Goodlooking. Quite smart. Tall. Read a lot.
Me: No.
N: You are looking at this as your future. (N raised his hands, placed his palms together in a Buddhist prayer style and did a little chanting)
N: (loudly) A Nun!
Me (annoyed): Shut up lar. Don't be stupid!
N: (let out another sigh) I don't know what kind of an ultra alpha infra-red ray guy you want.
Me: aiya you! No hurry. Wait lar. Sarah has to wait for quite a while for a son what. So I wait lar.
N raised his eyebrows in disbelief. Then he raised his hands, placed his palms........
So the result of that non-chalant attitude: I am alone today. No one is available today. I realised that I probably need someone. I better pray.
Past bad experience cut a person deeply. But I should have faith in Him.
So I sat down and prayed the prayer that E had asked me to pray. I prayed.
He didn't send anyone. Usually He would. I felt like a lone warrior fighting the battle alone. I got cuts and wounds but I won. There was no one to share my joyous moment of my triumph and there was no one to comfort me. I was a sad sorry figure when I left the office, with my head hunging low and my shoulders drooping.
I picked up my phone and called. No one was available. I logged on to MSN and messaged whoever was online. No one answered.
For the first time in the longest time, I thought it really would be good to have someone.
I recalled the several times that E had asked me whether I have been praying about finding "the guy". Each time I said no.
"What do you normally pray about for yourself?" E asked.
"Work lor. Finding a new job. I am bored to death. I have been praying for that for the last one year. ARGHHH....I am going to die if it is not going to happen anytime soon."
"Huh? Why don't you pray to God to guide you to your husband?"
"Oh. Because I want a new job badly. For now, finding that guy is not that important. Later lar. I will pray later when I come to it. Walau. JOB first lar."
"You have to pray." E advised. "Have you thought about the qualities you want in your guy?"
"Don't know. The usual lor. 1.8m tall like all my exes. What am I going to do with all my high-heels dating someone shorter right?"
"You must pray." E said, ignoring what I just said about the high-heels, which was such a salient point.
"Orrh..."
Wow. Why E like that? My mom also never talk to me like that. What is the hurry? Pray about it later. One thing at a time mar. I really want a new job. I am so bored and a guy can't resolve my boredom at work. He would just make my life worse.
Even N is anxious. Our usual conversation about my singlehood goes like this:
N: Why don't you like A? (running through the list of single guys that we both know)
Me: Don't like. Don't know.
N: How about B lei.
Me: Don't like.
N: Why?
Me: Don't know. Don't like.
N: That one lei. That C.
Me: Aiyo. No lar. That one cannot.
N: (let out a loud sigh) Then D.
Me: Hmmm... (turning to my book)
N: Oiii. D is good what. Goodlooking. Quite smart. Tall. Read a lot.
Me: No.
N: You are looking at this as your future. (N raised his hands, placed his palms together in a Buddhist prayer style and did a little chanting)
N: (loudly) A Nun!
Me (annoyed): Shut up lar. Don't be stupid!
N: (let out another sigh) I don't know what kind of an ultra alpha infra-red ray guy you want.
Me: aiya you! No hurry. Wait lar. Sarah has to wait for quite a while for a son what. So I wait lar.
N raised his eyebrows in disbelief. Then he raised his hands, placed his palms........
So the result of that non-chalant attitude: I am alone today. No one is available today. I realised that I probably need someone. I better pray.
Past bad experience cut a person deeply. But I should have faith in Him.
So I sat down and prayed the prayer that E had asked me to pray. I prayed.
posted by eternal bough at 11:23 PM
5 Comments:
I think I'd better limit my comments on your blog lest ppl think I some kind of stalker ...
But ... after reading this post I felt I really HAVE to reply because I was in a situation like that too ... praying for someone to pop into my life ...
And ... it was only when I let God decide on who's it gonna be that things started to happen.
Oh yeah, forgot to add, take the time - this "single time" - to prepare yourself for the person that God is going to send.
As special as you are to Him, so is this person. So He doesn't want either of you hurt.
Deal with your own issues and get yourself ready before this person shows up.
walau, I have just started to pray. What to do now? pray or don't pray or pray for other stuff?
lemme itemize for you hor:
(a) pray that He will bring you someone that, in His wisdom, is best for you.
(b) prepare yourself for this person. Couplehood is no walk in the park, but it's really fun.
ok ok. now very clear. next time, can you speak in point form? muaahhaaa....
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