God's perfect timing

For the first time in a long while or for as long as I remember, God is slow in answering my prayers, as I understand slowness. He would take years before my prayers would be answered.

``Why? you notti huh? That's why God took so long.'' N said.

``I don't know lar. Maybe He wants me to learn patience. So I pray, but I don't expect an immediate answer. I prepare my mind that it would take a few years. Then God answered my prayer within two days the other day. I was so amazed and grateful. I was like WOOWWWW.''

I wanted to tell N what that prayer was but he looked distracted and the ice-cream on my caramel banana pieces was melting, calling for my attention.

``So, you going for church camp?''

``Yes. Of course. You know what happened last church camp what. I couldn't stop talking about the camp for at least a month.''

N laughed. He knew. He was hearing camp stories on a daily basis.

``Last year, I came back transformed. Things that I didn't knew I would be able to accept or do, I actually accept and carry them out. Even I was amazed and you were too.''

N laughed again.

``So this year you would come back wanting to be a missionary?''

``Walau. you are a prophet? How do you know this year theme is Missions?'' I paused and looked thoughtful. ``Hmmm...I think you are right. This year, I probably come back from camp, wanting to be a missionary. Wow, I think you have a gift of prophecy''

N looked annoyed.

My mind went through the conversation I had with a friend yesterday.

``D, you want to learn how to hear God? You pray, make sure your daily walk with Him is solid. You will hear him.''

``huh?'' I was frowning.

``You would know what he is saying. I asked him in the afternoon to remind me to pray for David. and he did. I was walking out of the bathroom, there was a reminder in my head. It's Him. He never fails. He really really never fails.''

``Ok.'' still frowning.

``You go home or go back to your office and pray for that. You will hear him speak.''

``Ok. Got like that one mei?'' Half-belief. ``But that is pretty dangerous. How do you know whether that is from Him or from the devil? I am rather apprehensive about following things like that or something unreliable like emotions. On some days, you feel like you rather be dead, then you go and die? That is unrealiable.''

``It can only come when you are close to Him. You know whether it is from Him or not. Everything is based on prayers.''

``So I can ask for a sign? I can cast lots. Like how those guys chose the person to replace Judas in Acts?''

``Errr....ok, just pray first lar. train yourself. You would know.''

Back to my caramel bananas and N.

So hmmmm....is this what He has intended for me to hear? I am going to be a missionary? Can't wait for church camp. What does He want me to be?